I Guess These Things Take Time...

Just Thought I Would Add A Picture-=)

I was sitting out on the porch this morning, just a hint of cool in the air. All was quiet, except the birds chirping. Occasionally they would get a little rowdy and begin to chase one another. That was a sight. I had just finished cleaning the house, and had quite a bit of time before Samantha woke up. I was feeling one of those, "Everything will be okay. Leave it to God," feelings. So I started to think, which is an unusual change from the normal, "I began to stress." (Well, I never really stop stressing, so the word began doesn't actually fit there.) I do a lot of dreaming, in spurts, but then I start to feel guilty that I have taken my mind off of whatever the current problem is. As of right now, that would be, one of us, finding a job, something to allow Jessie to make it through school. Anyhow, I am getting off track. My question was, "What is my idea of the perfect life?" I needed to answer this question in order to live the life I want to live. If I don't know how I want to live, how will I ever live that way, or even close to it? When I close my eyes and begin dream, I see us three, The Mays Family. We are living in a small home, in the country. At least, it looks like the country, and there is about an acre of land. Samantha is playing and Jessie and I are outside with her. In this dream, I have a garden. I am a great gardener and I am able to grow just about all the vegetables that we need. I can also cook like a goddess! I make everything we need from scratch. And I am teaching Samantha how to cook too. We cook and bake all the time, big, delicious meals! During the day, I homeschool Samantha. We do a lot of activities. We do school field trips, volunteer, and I can drive, so we can also take trips to the park or other fun places. And in my spare time, I sew. I make everything, from blankets and pillows to complete outfits. Let's not forget Jessie. He enjoys his job, and he works from home most of the time. We get to spend the days together and it is always pretty outside...Now, I know that's not possible, but most of it is. These things just take time. I want to learn to garden, but I have no space. The small pots on the window sill just aren't enough. I am learning to cook, one recipe at a time, sometimes from scratch. I feel very accomplished by this. And sewing...I just don't know where to start. I guess I am impatient. I have a friend who is going to come over and teach me to use my sewing machine, but most people I know just SAY things, and never do...I hope that isn't true in this case. Jessie is working on school. And hopefully, once he finishes, we can move into a dream place, or close. Eh...But again...These things just take time.

This Lady...

The pioneer woman...She is exactly who I have been looking for. A website that says it all, from a real person. A website that has recipes, gardening tips, homeschooling, and hobbies, such as photography. The only thing I think it is missing is a little sewing. Then it would be complete. But who knows, she could have it on there and I am just completely missing it. Here is her website: 

http://thepioneerwoman.com/

Garden

I have recently found that I enjoy "gardening." We will call it that, but I don't have a backyard, so all my "gardening" is out of my pots. My daughter is going to help me. We are doing several herbs and possibly going to start vegetables soon. I am pretty excited to have an actual hobby. And I am hoping to learn a lot about cooking and well, gardening. We will see.